I’m fairly certain I mean it when I say that I would rather feel everything than nothing at all. Even though feeling everything, the full magnitude and strength of every event and scenario, is incredibly scary and tough sometimes.
These days I’m learning how to reevaluate what matters and what holds meaning. I’m also learning a lot about uncertainty and the unknown.
“The unknown carries with it a mirror of all our deepest, most inexpressible wishes. The unknown is the fatal proposition that a face seen across the room will always hold out to the known.” – Alain de Botton, On Love.
Just now settling back to life in NC after a wild week-long journey West.
From Monday – Monday, I was in Colorado and Utah. I took time off my normal life and routine here, packed my backpack and went with the full intention of some self-care. I left my computer and work at home, and traveled to a new state (Utah) for love and exploration and time in the wilderness.
I hiked, snapped a few photos, and even chipped a tooth!
Enjoy this pink sky from a drive across I-70. More to come someday.
“It should not be denied… that being footloose has always exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations, with absolute freedom, and the road has always led West.” – Wallace Stegner
Lindsey and Jesse were married in their backyard in Durham one beautiful Saturday afternoon in late August.
Lindsey told me they were getting married in their backyard, and I honestly did not know what to expect. When I pulled up to their home, I was entirely blown away. From the chickens, to the gardens, and the perfect late summer light, Lindsey and Jesse’s backyard was a magical and perfect place to have a wedding!
I felt honored to be present on their special day. These two love fully and it is evident in everything they do.
I’m so happy these two found each other and share a love like this.
Location: Lindsey and Jesse’s backyard in Durham, NC.
Video: Grace Farson
Photography: Bridget McEnaney
Music: Macklemore and James Morrison
Lindsey and Jesse’s wedding video coming soon!
This past week has been a week that I will never forget.
I have not known what to do with myself but write. The only thing I can do now is to stop and reflect and remember.
On Thursday, I received a call that shook my life and left me heartbroken.
The world lost Tom a week ago today.
We lost someone who was full of laughter, who was ready and willing to accept any challenge, and who was kind beyond every expectation. He gave freely and loved others well.
He has long been a bright star in my sky and I am forever grateful to have known him. We first met in New Zealand, traveled parts of Nepal together, and in May, he traveled to NC to see and experience the world I live in here.
The only thing I have been able to take heart in in these hard times is knowing this–
I knowing me today, you know Tom. You know the person who helped shape me into the person I am today.
I have memories and stories that will continue to live and be shared forever. And, they are more precious now than ever.
“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”- Anne Lamott