Daily frustrations


Simple, stupid frustrations seem so much harder today than they should.

Today is weird and the weather is contributing a lot to this. I get a new Tornado warning message every few minutes and it’s raining so hard that the world around me is flooding. I like it. I’ve spent a good deal of this afternoon writing and it turns out I forgot how to. I really like new words and reading until my head hurts these days, but I cannot write. I forgot how to write creatively, how to write an email, and how to write a proposal.

I also realized today that I don’t really want to be here. It’s a reoccurring feeling and it’s never fun.

Overall, the first week back has been blurry, uncomfortable, and incredibly sad.

I’m adjusting poorly to being back and I’m ready to shake off the bad and move on. I have so very much to get excited about, but I’m not quite there. I can feel it coming though. . . .

I was thinking today about how I am a lot like my mother and I don’t really belong in any one group. I’d always thought I knew what I liked the most and the ways I should spend my days, but now I don’t even know! It turns out I just like far too many things and no matter how many lists I make, I’m just as clueless as ever!

That said, here’s to hazy Saturdays!

Here’s to being okay with feeling trapped (*like I did in this alley in Kathmandu) To listening to the same two songs on repeat, to making and revising lists, and to wild weather. . . And most of all, here’s to liking a lot and attempting to make sense of it all.

what i wore wednesday: week 15

“so much there is to see, but our morning eyes describe a different world than do our afternoon eyes, and surely our wearied evening eyes can report only a weary evening world.”

– john steinbeck, travels with charley

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life is so rewarding when you wake up early.

today has been so good.

in fact, it’s the complete opposite of yesterday. yesterday i was feeling sad, ill and unmotivated and today i’m ready for it all – ready to work. . . ready to find time for things that matter . . . and ready to take on whatever life throws at me.

today is a day to celebrate:

+ getting ahead

+ feeling accomplished

+ waking up early

+ the chilly weather

+ friends and good converstations

+ tea

+ quiche for breakfast

+ carborro

+ special sweaters {and flags of the world!}

+ good memories

world – i hope you have an equally good wednesday!

+ rivers and roads by the head and the heart