Leaning into the coming season

So close to the end of other things right now. Today has been the kind of day where everything seems possible again. Maybe it is the good night’s sleep, the productive morning, the sun (*finally out to play), or some Haim at work . . . but, today is going to be good. The hard work and the long days are finally starting to pay off.

That’s all.

shape

(Old photo –> re-liked: Pancake rocks, New Zealand)

Muscle of Difficulty 

November’s clench. A sullen band
of cloud is louring in the West—
a low forehead, a corrugated frown.
Behind it comes the cold drop of frost
and autumn’s first hard night.

Corrugator—the tightening band
over the forehead’s bone,
the ‘muscle of difficulty,’
of concentration, effort, of leaning in
to frigid wind.

I lean into this coming season
of difficulty, when the sun
will struggle to raise its head
above the angle of sunset,
its bleak obliquity.

November’s forehead wears
scoured furrow, tension.
Forgets joy, the orbicular crinkle
of eye, those other muscles
to be strengthened.

I think of squinting into the ache
of snow, corrugated tracks.
Facing into November, I find it
difficult to anticipate
consolations—

the warmth of small, enclosed spaces,
the candles of memory
at its center. How can this ever be
enough? I fear too much.
The losses. Isolation.

– Alice Major

Fortress in the sand

IMG_0018 IMG_0024 IMG_0020Lately, my head and heart have been a lot of places but here. I have been thinking a lot about Mexico, Rajasthan, and Indonesia.

This week I have been to two performances that have changed my life (and I do not say that lightly). My little world rocked, tumbled, and fell and a lot changed what I thought I knew about humans and human nature.

On Monday, I went to see the Manganiyar Seduction and let’s just say I found myself wanting to live and stay in Memorial Hall forever, listening and watching, wanting to dance.  It was entirely magical and most of all it reminded me of how magical the place they call home really is. . . Rajasthan is out of this world and I’m ready to go back one of these days (soon). It was the India I imagined as kid (camels, turbans, bright colors) and I felt like I was living in a hot, fairyland in the desert.

This week, despite all of the life-altering performances, has been challenging to say the least. Thankfully all I needed was Wednesday. And some Amirah, some sun, and some fancy water. 

Lessons learned | How to procrastinate

IMG_9220

Today, all for the sake of avoiding my real work, I:

+ Talked to strangers. Clocked an hour talking to a self-proclaimed “talent scout”

+ Sold people things they didn’t need (*but, nevertheless,  convinced them they wanted)

+ I baked. And I baked things I don’t even like . . . and don’t even have the right ingredients for (*see. cinnamon rolls)

+ I didn’t nap

+ I changed outfits. Four times

+ I went to the plant store just to see and touch plants

+ I read some poems

+ I did a few asanas

+ I pretended to read about ecology and ecosystems

+ I read this article. Twice

That’s how I spent my day so far.

And,  I didn’t feel guilty about it. Any of it.

[Photo: Kitchen experiments on a Wednesday//Grace Farson]

what i wore wednesday: week 15

“so much there is to see, but our morning eyes describe a different world than do our afternoon eyes, and surely our wearied evening eyes can report only a weary evening world.”

– john steinbeck, travels with charley

+ + +

life is so rewarding when you wake up early.

today has been so good.

in fact, it’s the complete opposite of yesterday. yesterday i was feeling sad, ill and unmotivated and today i’m ready for it all – ready to work. . . ready to find time for things that matter . . . and ready to take on whatever life throws at me.

today is a day to celebrate:

+ getting ahead

+ feeling accomplished

+ waking up early

+ the chilly weather

+ friends and good converstations

+ tea

+ quiche for breakfast

+ carborro

+ special sweaters {and flags of the world!}

+ good memories

world – i hope you have an equally good wednesday!

+ rivers and roads by the head and the heart